At my core, I know I am a blessed woman. I truly need for nothing. I have a home, a car that is paid for, clothes to wear, a part-time job, food to eat and a husband and friends who love me. James and I have even talked about the fact that there is truly nothing that we NEED. Again, what a blessing.
I will be honest that what I do need right now in my life is rest. As I previously noted, I believe the grief and events of the past year have decided to take this time of the year to kick my butt. For that reason, I plan to take this week off from any additional posts. I have many ideas floating through my head and need some days where I do not feel I need to do anything. I do not dread the next few days but I also am not bouncing off the walls (but that tends to stop once you become an adult). My Christmases will never be what they were but James and I will begin to think about what our new normal will look like.
In some way I long for the time when I truly wanted something specific and anxiously waited to see if it would be under the tree. I suppose my Christmas Wish for myself is that I continue to have the peace I have felt throughout the year. I do not want to wear the cloak of grief for the rest of my life but I also know I must work through my emotions.
I want to thank each of you for always taking the time to read my posts throughout the past nine months. I have written over 100 posts now and in many ways this has been my journal on days when I did not write in my personal journal. I have appreciated your words of encouragement and the fact that many of the things I wrote were beneficial to you. My prayer has always been to make something good out of the things which have occurred to me this year.
I pray that your Christmas is peaceful and that you are able to be surrounded by those that you love. If you are physically hurting or emotionally in pain, I pray that you find comfort. Be grateful for what you have but do not forget there are those who are not as fortunate.
I will be back next week. Until then – Merry Christmas!!